Catch me When I Fall
- Kendra Chelsea
- Sep 30, 2016
- 3 min read
What happens when the happiest girl in the world becomes depressed? I didn’t know it at the time but I was about to find out.
“Hey bud.” I said as my son answered my phone call. “I was thinking that maybe you would like to go to the club like the good old days, you know back when I didn’t have any friends. It’s been a while.”
“What day?” He asked.
“Well we are going on vacation next week, so how about the week after, I don’t have to work that weekend.” I answered.
“Oh, well, no, Sandy and I are going to her parents’ house for dinner. How about the weekend after that?”
“Dang, no, I have to work that Saturday night…” I said with a sigh. “Oh well, we will figure something out.”
Thus began my quest to change it up, get away from all the paired up couples. I have said it over and over again, I love Marcie…and Jamie; I love Kim…and Tony; I love Miranda…and Mr. Greenjeans; I love Brendan…and Sandy but…there is no and to go along with Kendra.
But Miranda was in Westminster and Brendan was busy it was either me by myself or me with other couples and it was getting to me, especially after I realized I was better than a blowjob in the front seat of my car. At least I thought I was because alone was taking its toll on me.
“You will never find someone if you are desperate.” Kim reminded me and reminded me of that often.
“Sure, thanks Kimberly, maybe if I relax and watch a little TV, take a couple of weekends off, maybe the guys will come to me.”
“I am just telling you, don’t be that desperate girl, guys can sense that.”
“I don’t know what else to do, I see everyone around me happy and then there is just me.” I responded.
“Don’t be silly Kendra, you will always have me.” She said as she patted the bed next to her as an offer to join her.
“Cool, awesome, then lets have sex.” I said with as much sarcasm that I could muster.
“Ewe, now, I mean I am not gay, you know that.” She joked.
“Yea, I am not gay either so there you have my biggest dilemma. I asked Marcie if we could change it up a little, I am not getting anywhere going to gay bars or Freddie’s. I think gay men are really not interested in someone that looks like a girl.” I moaned, “and Freddie’s, well even though the guys there ARE, well they are looking for men that look like a girl and well, I am not looking for that.”
“Well there are always tops…”Kim said in an attempt to be sympathetic.
“That would still put me in a position to be in a gay relationship, you know, I am a straight woman, I need a straight man.” I said a little snippy. “I am sorry, really, I am just so frustrated.”
“You really are in a pretty bad situation. I wish I could help you; maybe our little vacation will put you in a better mood.” She responded.
“Yea, that will do it, Marcie in Jamie in one room sexing it up while you are upstairs sexing it up with me on the couch downstairs crying myself to sleep. That should do it yea, that should make me happy.” I growled and then pulled myself from the bed.
“It won’t be like that Kendra, we wouldn’t do that to you.” Kim said as she attempted to grab my hand.
“And Kendra will, once again be the party pooper, no thanks.” I said, but realized I was taking it out her and it was most definitely not her fault and then turned back toward her. “I am sorry, you all are so good to me and I am such a bitch, you deserve so much better.”
“I am sorry sweetie, I wish I could make it better for you, but it will happen, you don’t have to rush it.” She replied
I eased myself in the bed next to her again, “I love you baby; I just hope you are there to catch me when I fall because when I fall, I am going to fall hard.”
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